I have a confession to make. Last night I had 2.5 Gin and Tonics, and a Yuengling. I do intend to cut off drinking as much as possible but in my first big social situation after making this choice I was surrounded by people I didn't know and I caved. Baby steps. I also need to remember that when I do cave I don't need to cave so much. I must remind myself of my increasingly lower tolerance. Somehow while attempting to go to the bathroom I fell in the tub. Honestly, I don't know how it happened. When I looked up my drink was sitting on the sink, I wasn't wearing slippery shoes. I was just standing one second and in the tub thinking "oh shit" the next. Ta daa, there's still a little Holly in there for you. Actually that's more like the woman at Holly's party crying into the mirror. We all have our bad moments. I think other than that I avoided acting like an ass at the party.
I also came across my first perfect 10. It was a cupcake make by Rosie's Bakery in Cambridge. The icing was so good I wanted to go lick it off every cupcake but I was very well behaved and just ate the one chocolate cupcake. The rest of the food provided at the party looked tasty and was not all terrible for you (salsa and hummus were choices though I didn't see what they were serving them with) but I made sure to eat before going to the party and stayed away from the food all night. Progress. A little.
I think today's weakness of the day is obvious: using booze for self esteem in social situations where I don't know anyone.
Let's have a happier share time to end the blog.
Have any of you figured out what you want to be when you grow up? When I was little I wanted to be a mommy, I still do someday but I would also like a job that inspires me. I can't quite figure out what it is. So if you know please share and feel free to say how long you've known this was the path you wanted to take.
Much love,
Lula Mae
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ReplyDeleteI have no idea what I want to be when I grow up. I honestly don't think anyone does. You think you know and then you do that and you realize its either not what you thought it was or just not for you. I think the key is to find something you are good at but also truly passionate about and inspires you to want to do more within the realm of your job. Like for me, I'm really good at what I do (I'm not trying to be conceited, but its true), and I have a fair amount of passion about it, but clearly I don't have enough or I would be a whole lot happier and not always wonder what I want to do when I grow up. I think most be spend their lives trying to figure it out and just go job to job to job in hopes of finding it. Sometimes people get comfortable and feel safe so they do the same thing forever, even if they aren't truly happy, but rather just content. Let's not do that.
Love you!
I know that I'm doing what I want to be doing, but then there are so many things that I want to do in conjunction with teaching. I want get another degree in International Relations, I want to work at fundraising for my summer camp, which I love, I want to live in a city, I want to join the peace corp. But I realized that I am still young. Right now, teaching is what makes me the happiest, and then maybe five years from now, I will go to school and get my next degree, and then who knows...that's the great thing is that we don't have to know, we just have to make sure what we are doing, at this moment, is what we are happy doing. All my little high schoolers always know what they are going to be when they grow up, and then when they come back and visit me, two years out of college, they have changed their major, switched schools, and have no clue...but that's all a apart of growing up.
ReplyDeleteI refuse to believe that by 28, we need to have it all figured out. Then everything would be boring.
1. the secret regarding 'caving' for me is 2-fold: first as you say, try not to cave too big; and second, even if you do cave big time, to realize caving is part of the process and too not beat myself up over it. (Plus, sometimes one or two drinks in a room full of strangers is necessary. One of those social evils, i think.)
ReplyDeleteOn another note: I really feel like I still don't know what I'm going to be when i grow up, but i second sara's comment about feeling like i'm doing what I want to. I'm not sure what will come of it, but right this moment it feels right.
Caving happens! The hard part is seeing it as a genuine setback rather than permission to cave more...both Greg and I are trying to quit smoking-- he's about 3 weeks without and I am 12 days. It's always difficult.
ReplyDeleteIt was good to talk to you the other day. We should do that more!
I agree, I do not give myself permission to cave more but will not beat myself if it happens.
ReplyDeleteYou're all smart. :)